This is not a fashion post. This is a post about love.
My Tolkien journey is a very easy one to describe. I discovered the books when I was young, and then I wanted to be Éowyn.
‘Look!’ [Gandalf] cried, and they lifted their tired eyes. Before them stood the mountains of the South: white-tipped and streaked with black. The grass-lands rolled against the hills that clustered at their feet, and flowed up into many valleys still dim and dark, untouched by the light of dawn, winding their way into the heart of the great mountains. Immediately before the travellers the widest of these glens opened like a long gulf among the hills. Far inward they glimpsed a tumbled mountain-mass with one tall peak; at the mouth of the vale there stood like a sentinel a lonely height. About its feet there flowed, as a thread of silver, the stream that issued from the dale; upon its brow they caught, still far away, a glint in the rising sun, a glimmer of gold.
I was never very good at the demands made on little girls (and this was in the 70s and 80s) to be good, pure angels, compliant and pretty and sweet. Not that I was a little hellion, far from it. I tried very hard to make everyone like me, and to be what my teachers and parents and parish priests and all the rest wanted.
And in the meantime, in my imagination, I slayed the Witch-king. Faramir loved me. And even though I refused a cage, I finally accepted a garden. I tip my cap to Miranda Otto for her characterization in the movies; I think she really captured Éowyn’s pride and longing. Her desperation was palpable. It hurt.
…Grave and thoughtful was her glance, as she looked on the king with cool pity in her eyes. Very fair was her face, and her long hair was like a river of gold. Slender and tall she was in her white robe gilt with silver; but strong she seemed and stern as steel, a daughter of kings. Thus Aragorn for the first time in the full light of day beheld Éowyn, lady of Rohan, and thought her fair, fair and cold, like a morning of pale spring that is not yet come to womanhood.
I was a girl who wanted more than to be decorative, not that my looks were up to the task. I was a girl who wanted to achieve as much as I could, not just as much as was expected. I was a girl who wanted to be free. Just like Éowyn. And I know we don’t have Meduseld in the game yet, but when I crossed the bridge south from Great River into Rohan, the music swelled and I burst into tears. And I don’t have any problem admitting that.